We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.When I was an infant at my mother’s breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good. We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us! But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love. — 1 Corinthians 13:10-13
I have been thinking a lot lately about how faith changes. How the faith I had as an an elementary school child grew into the faith of a middle schooler, high schooler, college student, seminarian, and now a young adult woman. How I went from having a simple faith, where I believed very easily to now being in a season of doubt and questioning. Sometimes it has been a hard journey to go through. I miss just simply believing, without question or doubt. Thankfully I have had people along the way tell me it is ok to doubt, to question. That our perspective of who God is should change as we change and grow.
And this is what I hope to be to youth. Being a youth minister in the the Northeast has been a completely different experience. There is not one set narrative here for what it means to be a Christian. My youth have not quite been indoctrinated the same way I was as a youth. They haven’t learned silly songs to remember books of the Bible. They haven’t gone through Awana and memorized portions of the Bible each week for another jewel in their crown (literally). They aren’t dropped off at malls and made to ask strangers if they know where they are going to go when they die. But just because their faith journey and formative years were not exactly like mine doesn’t mean we don’t all wrestle with the same doubts.
We are all on this journey together, this winding road discovering what faith is, who God is.
My faith is living and breathing and changing.
I don’t know for certain where the journey is taking me. But I keep walking step by step.